Mr Adult

An old Mr Children song that I find moving. I really like the video. The joy and sorrows of life. Where have our dreams gone? Am I bold enough to take life by the horns and fight for better days? Or do I wallow in regrets? There’s no easy answers and no other way except to live, love, choose and move on.

Kurumi くるみ

Kurumi Acoustic from the movie 幸福な食卓

*loose translation
Hey Kurumi
I wonder what this street look like in your eyes?
And what do I look like in your eyes?

Hey Kurumi
If the caring words of the people around you
seem like put downs in your ears
So what will you do?

Looking back at the better days
only makes one feel older
At this stage of my life I am gonna get going
I am not just gonna be a cog in the machine
with growing hopes and increasing disappointments
Even with the way things are now my heart is still stirred
“What are the possibilities out there?”
Try and imagine it

Hey Kurumi
If everything will be taken and carry away by the river of time
with that in mind, then living is much easier

Hey Kurumi
When it happens I am not gonna shed a tear
on second thought there hasn’t been much
that has brought on a hearty laughter in me

It’s like an extra button that made me realized that
I might have buttoned up wrong somehow
I thought to myself maybe finding another person that has an extra buttonhole
it will give life a little more meaning
With the increasing chance encounters in life
it multiples the goodbyes
But the heart still beats with hope
It’s inevitable to feel a little lost
at the crossroads sometimes

Always wanting to have more than the eyes can see
for the sake of pursuing the unchanging love
we sing and sing for it
and the wheels spins endlessly
doing more than it’s made to do
causing the gears to creak

With growing hopes comes with increasing disappointments
Even with the way things are now my heart is still stirred
“What are the possibilities out there?”
Try and imagine it
With the increasing chance encounters in life
it multiples the goodbyes
But the heart still beats with hope
There is no turning back now
Walk on to the roads where there is no you.

Northen Europe Our Final Destnation

I was really amused by My Little Airport’s morbid little ditty called 北歐是我們的死亡終站 (Northen Europe Our Final Destnation). There are days, days that I thought ending it is quite a viable idea. But I know I am too chicken and hell, I should at least try to make life work. But then there are days… which the idea is still very tempting.

*my loose translation
On a melancholy Sunday
we discussed about ways to end our lives
You say swallowing pills is a good way to go
I say what if it didn’t work
Gastric lavage can be hard to bear
Slashing wrist can be painful don’t think I can take it
We both agreed charcoal burning might be the most comfortable way to die
but ain’t we a little too depressing
So you say why not freeze to death
like wearing a sweat shirt freeze to death at the North Pole
I got real excited and suggest we should first travel round Finland
then freeze to death in our sweat shirts
You say actually we can first travel the world then
freeze ourselves to death in Finland
“Great Idea!” I say Northern Europe would be our final destination
what a romantic idea
So you ask when do we get this plan going? What about 29?
And we will live eternally being 29
I say there’s not a lot of time
we gotta start saving for our plans
You say you have some savings and can be my sponsor
I was so moved and began to dream about
being 29 and heading off to Northern Europe with you

I wish I was there to catch the band when they were in Malaysia.

Another bonus track
窮人賣屎忽 (The poor sells their ass)

*my loose translation
The world’s economy has hit rock bottom
The poor sells their ass to save Hong Kong
Our savings are now fully emancipated
The next best thing is doing charity or start a band

We don’t charge alot
We badly needed some cash
We are willing to spend a little on the equipments
just so the customers feel satisfy

Lei Guang Xia’s 80s

She has been around in the Taiwan music scene for a decade yet I’ve never heard of her until I read some coverage of hers on some Chinese indie music sites. Lei Guang Xia 雷光夏 is a singer-song writer, radio DJ, soundtrack composer and basically an all round talent. I think her songs really packs with emotional punch and more people need to know her music cos’ music wise, she is the real deal. Here is a sample of a song that I really, really like from her 2006 release “Light in the darkness” 黑暗之光.

My 80s (我的80年代)

And needless to say, I love the video to bits.

my feeble attempt of translating the lyric:
That day
A breeze blew through my fingers
it doesn’t linger
instead it float away
and fell in your grasp
You have forgotten my question
what is it that we share and
have a common ground of in the 80s?
It’s your smile, that love song,
the endless piano prelude
and the drummer that’s still waiting
silently at “yesterday”

An unsent letter, blooming in spring
Waking in the morning
All these moments does it makes you
remember that unfinished melody
Tell me, seriously,
what is it that we share and
have a common ground of in the 80s?
It’s your smile, that love song,
the endless piano prelude
and the weeping note that was finally embraced

Leave… my weakened dream
the further the better
that holds no faces
Let all my sweet memories and your past
meet somewhere, sometime

An unsent letter, blooming in spring
Waking in the morning
All these moments does it makes you
remember that unfinished melody
Tell me, seriously,
what is it that we share and
have a common ground of in the 80s?
Yet your smile
has lost it’s traces along with the breeze.

Still. My dear

A chinese song that has hit the soft spot of my heart recently. Huge part of the sweetness comes from Karena Lam’s guest voice. But it actually tells a bitter tale of a love that has expired. Great listen for the autumn season.

依然‧親愛的 – at 17 (feat. 林嘉欣)

A loose translation:
That year… that day that we met
it’s like you and I have never had much of an indifference
When you’re around
it’s always warm even on a cold day

Karena: ” You said that you wanna have an old folks home
so that when we’re old and left on our own
we can look out for each other
You said you like Shirley Kwan
I said I like Sandy Lam
Out of a surge of silly enthusiasms
we spent all our pocket money and a whole day
singing all their songs at the karaoke
And now I wonder… will you still…
will you still do these things with me like you used to?”

It’s hard to come by to always have someone around
like when I’m just having a smoke
I felt like I can just stay in with her
not go out for days
like we can waste the days away
like there is nothing to fear…

It’s hard to come by
K: “Hello?”

To always have her around
K: “What yer up to?”

I just wanna be with her
K: “It’s been awhile since I’ve seen you…”

Stay in all days
K: “Do you have time for me?”

Waste our days away
K: “Erm…”

Like there is nothing to fear
K: “It’s ok… I’ll catch you another time…”

Tegami

Just heard this song and fell in love with it. I’m a little too old to identify with the words… “slightly” cringe worthy? Still I am moved by the melody and Aki’s delivery.

English Translation from Meheartdancing:
Dear you,
Who’s reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

For me who’s 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can’t tell anyone

If it’s a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself

Now, it seems that I’m about to be defeated and cry
For someone who’s seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present

Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you

If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You’ll be able to see the answer

The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don’t be defeated and please don’t shed a tear
During these times when you’re seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I’m hurt
But I’m living the bittersweet present

There’s meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Seems like I’m about to be defeated and cry
For someone who’s seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?

Please don’t be defeated and please don’t shed a tear
During these times when you’re seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice

No matter era we’re in
There’s no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present

Dear you,
Who’s reading this letter
I wish you happiness

I’m sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state

I know I said I loved you but I’m thinking I was wrong,
I’m the first to admit that I’m still pretty young,
and I never meant to hurt you when I wrote you ten love songs.
but a guy that I could never get ’cause his girlfriend was pretty fit
and everyone who knew her loved her so.
and I made you leave her for me and now I’m feeling pretty mean,
but my mind has fucked me over more times than any man could ever know.
Maybe I should give up, give in,
give up trying to be thin,
give up and turn into my mother,
god knows I love her.
and I’m sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state,
watch my steady lonesome gait and beware.
I would never love a man ’cause love and pain go hand in hand
and I can’t do it again.
So we stayed up late one night to try and get our problems right,
but I couldn’t get into his head just what was going through my mind,
and I think he knew where I was going ’cause he put Ryan Adams on I think he thinks it makes me weak but it only ever makes me strong.
I’ve got this friend who sounds just like him,
now he’s the man I’d leave you for, the man that I just adore like you.
The same man, he turns to me he said I’ve got to tell you how i feel,
if god could make the perfect girl for me it would be you
and my god told me not tell about how much do you love your fella?”
I don’t know more everyday
not in this new romantic way.
I’ll always be your first love, you’ll always be my first love.
and I’m sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state
watch my steady lonesome gait and beware,
I would never love a man ’cause love and pain go hand in hand
I would never love a man cause I could never hurt a man, not in this new romantic way.

Just a thought

All I want is your understanding
As in the small light of affection
Why is this my life?
Is almost everybody’s question

And I’ll try
Everything but suicide
But it’s crossed my mind

I prefer peace
Wouldn’t have to have one worldly possession
But essentially I’m an animal
So just what do i do with all the aggression?

Well I’ll try
Everything but suicide
But it’s crossed my mind

Life is a one way street, ain’t it?
If you could paint it
I’d draw myself goin’ in the right direction
so i go all the way like I really really but the truth is
I’m only guessing

And I try
Everything but suicide
Oh but it’s crossed my mind
Just a thought

It’s even dark in the daytime
It’s not just good, its great depression
When i was lost i even found myself
Lookin’ in the gun’s direction

And so I tried
Everything but suicide
But yes, its crossed my mind
…But im fine

– Gnarls Barkley – Just a thought

生活歌

好啦好啦
也有乐观点的歌啦

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据说你早已决定不想跟谁厮守一生
但不想来来去去孤单一人
我不是要你改变反正我也不是圣人
只是我爱你差点悲喜难分
也许你早已察觉我对你有多么认真
但不想最后酿成谁的牺牲
所以我每次提到将来你都充耳不闻
还是我自以为高人一等
亲爱的你对于爱情别太迷信合久一定分
有些时候 我们只要相信一切有可能
其实有些关系你终究不得不负责任
尤其是当青春亮起红灯
你明白我总不能终此一生坚守独身
为贯彻那没结果的坚贞
不再想 到了最后各自身旁躺着谁人
我和你 有幸能温柔共枕
夜已深

生活歌

我就是这么爱自我折磨
组了一组 “跳楼歌” playlist.
很多年前好友Tom 曾跟我说，
听Radiohead的颓废让他体会快乐
Garbage的negativity energy播完后让他更能认清positivity。
我很能认同他说的.
没黑暗怎能认出光明。

I am not sure what am I looking for in these songs
Maybe just a sense of connection
I am in a perpetual state of loneliness these days
I don’t want to run from it I just wanna face it.
Listening to happy songs might help for a moment,
but these sad songs reminded me I am not alone,
not the only one feeling this way.
It is more comforting that way.

我从不求能永远的幸福
却又不自觉不停的追逐
到最后所有的快乐
全都让我们更痛苦

我不求能一生的厮守
承诺只是你一时的感触
到最后所有的付出
全都被证明是当初美丽的错误 – 许美静 – 单数

天空越蔚蓝越怕抬头看
电影越圆满就越觉得伤感
有越多的时间就越觉得不安
因为我总是孤单过着孤单的日子

喜欢的人不出现
出现的人不喜欢
有的爱犹豫不决
还在想他就离开
想过要将就一点
却发现将就更难
于是我学着乐观
过着孤单的日子 – 刘若英 – 一辈子的孤单

总是平白无故的. 难过起来
然而大夥都在笑话正是精彩
怎麽好意思. 一个人走开

不是没有想过. 随便谈个恋爱
一天又过一天. 三十岁就快来 (*kungfutofu: 已年过三十， 听了更辛酸)
往后的日子怎麽对自己交待
寂寞难耐寂寞难耐
爱情是最辛苦的等待
爱情是最遥远的未来
时光不再啊. 时光不再
只有自己为自己喝采
只有自己为自己悲哀
虽然曾经有过很多感情的债
对於未来的爱 还是非常期待
这一次我的心情 不高不低 不好不坏 – 李宗盛 – 寂寞难耐

何谓快乐 何谓不灭的爱
从前为此 钻进绝角
还未知道 我是谁
常期望奖励 名利总像不够

随着日子困恼渐退 寻觅中教我看通
没绝对抉择 每天辗转发生
没有不可 弃旧要新
每日埋首工作 每夜随心挥霍
纵是会寂寞欲语无言
最爱是狂歌之后独行
埋首工作 努力无须感觉
世上每件事 就算无常
成败完全来自直觉 – 杨千嬅 – 直觉

You can’t get me back on the farm

Lyric of the Day
Aimee Mann Lyrics, Deathly Lyrics :

So don’t work your stuff
because I’ve got troubles enough
no, don’t pick on me
when one act of kindness
could be
deathly
deathly
definitely

Cause I’m just a problem for you to solve
and watch dissolve
in the heat of your charm
but what will you do
when you run it through
and you can’t get me back on the farm

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Ergo Proxy – Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia:

The story begins in a futuristic domed city called Romdo, built to protect its citizens after a global ecological disaster. In this utopia, humans and androids (AutoReivs[1]) coexist with each other peacefully under a total management system. A series of murders committed by berserk robots (infected with the Cogito virus) starts to jeopardize the delicate balance of the social order. Behind the scenes, the government is conducting secret experiments on a mysterious humanoid lifeform called Proxy, which is believed to hold the key to the survival of mankind.

Re-l Mayer is assigned to investigate some of the murders with her AutoReiv partner Iggy. She encounters a Cogito-infected AutoReiv and a fast and flexible monster. She later learns that the monster was a Proxy, the same sort of creature as another main character who normally assumes the guise of a immigrant named Vincent Law. After being hunted down, Vincent leaves Romdo, and Re-l tags along to discover the truth behind the Proxies and the domes.

Been following this series and was hooked after the 2nd episode. I don’t think I have the required “depth” to understand the hidden meanings and stuff in the show, but I really like the atmosphere and some of the intriguing ideas it post to the viewers. Oh, it has a great soundtrack to boot too. Radiohead’s “Paranoia Android” was aptly chosen to be the ending song for each episodes. ______________________________________________________

I still can’t pull myself away from “The World Ends with You” after beating the game a week ago. Now I am obsessed with collecting fighting pins that does awesome attacks! Eg. Shouting into the microphone to send a shock wave blasting away the enemies, or encasing the enemies in ice or rocks and immobilize them… Someone stop me!!!